Hi everyone,
This is my first post although i’ve been obsessed with mumsnet for years!
Please please no judgements but i’m so terrified and just need some advice.
I have 3 wonderful children, they are 11, 8 and 5
months. The first 2 have a different dad although they call my husband dad as there’s hasn’t been in their lives for a long time.
Our 5 month old is my husbands first and he has completed our family…or so i thought. I track all
my periods and ovulation as I can’t take the pill and well it seems i messed up somewhere along the line as i’m pregnant.
Im so so scared about how i can care for 4 children. We are fortunate enough to have space and my husband has a very good income so financially it will be ok. I’m more scared about how i can put my body through this again and selfishly will i ever get my old self back. I’m also feeling a terrible guilt that my baby will be pushed aside for want of a better phrase with a newborn. Also will
my eldest 2 children resent me for having another one (although my baby is their whole world).
Im sorry if i’m rambling and this doesn’t make sense, i guess i’m looking for some positivity and people with big families please tell me we will be ok!
Thank you so so much x