So long story short, I am 10w4d with my fourth pregnancy. My first pregnancy ended up in MC 8w4d, second was a chemical and third was around 7 weeks.
This pregnancy was an accident as fiancé and I decided to stop trying this year to protect our mental health from the losses.
I was bound by anxiety on the first 3 pregnancies, my mental health plummeted and I just had this instinct that something was wrong. This pregnancy has been totally different, I have felt very calm throughout.
HOWEVER in all my pregnancies, I dreamt beforehand that I was pregnant. And so I'm pretty sure my subconcious knows what's going on before I do. Additionally with the miscarriages, I dreamt of those too before they happened.
This pregnancy so far has gone very smoothly, I have had 3 early scans with the EPU and everything looked great, growing on track, I've been taking aspirin and progesterone. All in all, it's felt very different in a good way and I am the furthest along I have ever gotten, with my 12 week dating scan a week today.
To add to the complex history, I had my first MC in our holiday home by the coast and so being here can bring back those painful memories. We are here again for a week before our dating scan for a holiday and last night I had my first dream of a miscarriage this pregnancy... and it's spooked me.
Now I am concerned. Fiancé thinks it's a bad sign again. I am wondering whether it's because I am here, pregnant again, and a week away from the dating scan that I am just hyper aware of the MC we had here and somehow it's worked its way into my subconscious. OR, is my body just trying to tell me the impending doom is coming??