Feeling really low. Not enjoying this pregnancy.

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I'm almost 31, totally out of shape.. I put on a lot of weight the last couple of years and now fall into the obese category for BMI.. I don't feel healthy enough to be going through a pregnancy but it was a total surprise. I was on contraception and didn't intend to have another.

I suffer from chronic migraines which I was getting botox treatment for and also taking triptans as and when needed. I've had to stop my treatment now while pregnant so my migraines have flared up again. I was told by my GP that I can take sumatriptan if I really need to but to try to limit how often. Now that my migraines are flaring up again I'm getting them 2 to 3 times a week. I've been trying not to take triptans so resorted to using caffeine to help the migraine which I knew was a bad idea but was afraid to take the triptans.

Now I'm having caffeine withdrawal migraines... caffeine is the worst trigger for me. So I've had to take sumatriptan which I'm now feeling really upset and unhappy about. I've probably taken 4 throughout my pregnancy. I'm 15 weeks.

I also have hyperemesis so have taken cyclizine, promethazine and now ondanestron which is working along with omeprazole. This week I've had an ear infection so also using otomize ear spray. Not to mention the countless paracetamol I've had to take when trying to manage the migraines without triptans.

I just feel awful. So unhealthy, so sick all the time and just miserable. I'm so upset that I'm having to take so much medication while pregnant just to try and survive. I'm worried about the risks to the baby.

I probably feel more sensitive to this as my DS who is 6 is Autistic. I am his carer so that is why I've resorted to taking the medications as I need to be able to function to care for him. Taking all these medications is not helping with my fear of having another child with additional needs. DS also had complications when he was a baby.

I would have hoped with another pregnancy that I could be has healthy as I possibly could to try to give the baby the best chance possible but that's just not happening for me.

I feel so low and depressed and I don't have anyone to talk to about it in real life. I see my midwife for the first time next week.

Is there anyone out there who has been through similar?

OP it sounds like you are absolutely doing your best given your circumstances so why be so hard on yourself. Could you be doing anything more?
Try and focus on the things that are in your control. Are you managing to eat healthy nutritious meals and snacks? Drinking enough water? Remembering your vitamins?

Could you spend some time meal planning today and make sure you get some time outside each day to help your mood?

The hyperemesis was so bad through the first trimester that I rarely was able to eat anything remotely nutritious and didn't take a lot of vitamins at all as they made the nausea worse. Its only this last week I've been feeling less sick as I'm taking Ondanestron now.

I suppose I could try and meal prep now that I'm not feeling as bad. That is a good idea.

It's just the constant debilitating migraines, awful nausea and sickness all the time that is really getting to me. I feel like I can't take care of myself at all as whatever energy I have left goes on caring for my DS.

Pregnancy sucks, totally sold a load of bullshit about pregnancy glow ect

Bit off track but my dad and a girl I work with get terrible migraines that are both triggered after they eat sugar so might be worth a try to stop that and see if it helps. They sound absolutely awful, I hope I never get them! A normal headache makes me feel miserable enough

Yes sugar is a massive trigger! But mostly for me when I stop having the sugar. I'm guaranteed a week of back to back migraines. Its miserable!