I have two children, 9 yo DD and 3 yo DS.
I'm currently having my second miscarriage and I'm devastated to say the least.
This miscarriage has been far more painful in terms of cramps as well as traumatising as I've passed way more tissue this time. I'm very weak and tired.
I'm currently in a place of confusion. I really want baby number 3, but don't know if I can handle another miscarriage. After the first in April later year, we put things on hold due to opportunities at work after the first miscarriage and now that the time was right we decided to try again, getting BFP on the first month trying.
I wasn't overly worried or paranoid thinking statistics were in our favour. Now I just feel so naive. I'm not sure if I can handle trying for another in the risk that we have to go through this again.
DH has been wonderful and very comforting, but I can tell he's upset but just isn't wanting to open up at the moment in case it makes me feel worse?
I'm starting to tell myself my body is getting too old, although I'm only 31, my cycles have been getting excessively long the past few years. Always was at least a 35 day cycle. But last year have been in region of 60-70.
Tbh, I'm not entirely sure of the point in me posting this. I'm hoping others have been in a similar position and had positive outcomes/share their experiences?