Why do I feel this way?

[Kittenmum89]

I have recently found out that I am pregnant, I am obviously overjoyed at this. My husband and I had been trying since November (no time really compared to others). Please do not come at me for what I am about to say. I have thought about posting this for a few days now.

I am petrified. Have I done the right thing. I am aware my life will completely change, and my body and this fills me with so much anxiety? Please tell me is this normal to feel this way after dreaming of falling pregnant since we married.
I also found out I was pregnant 2 days prior to leaving for a 2 weeks family holiday in Florida and I find my self miserable every night while my husband and my whole family enjoy a wine with dinner or a rum while at the pool during the day. It sounds awful but I am so struggling with it. I never thought I would be like this, I am currently writing this while lieing in bed eating sweets, covered head to toe in horrible itchy bites. (One of my eye lid causing my eye to swell) while everyone else is outside drinking. I’m so miserable. I’m I going to be a bad mum for feeling so miserable only 5 weeks in being pregnant ?!

I think it's really normal to panic when it actually happens. I certainly did. It's only the biggest life/identity change you will ever make! Please don't give yourself a hard time for having an emotional reaction to a really big thing.

Absolutely normal. Our baby was absolutely planned and I was desperate for that positive test then when I got it it became so real and I was terrified and I also thought so many times have we done the right thing (baby is 1 now and just the most incredible little person in the world we definitely did do the right thing) I think once you are a bit further along you will start to feel less scared and way more excited.

As for the holiday blues. Maybe speak to your husband and tell him how you are feeling and maybe ask him to join you in solidarity with the no drinking atleast for a couple of nights. Try and join in anyways and pour yourself a wee soda and lime or some type of little mocktail so you can pretend to join in. I find I don't miss the alcohol part of drinking just the having something different or special to drink, plus no hangover! Winning!

Hold on in there it will get better and you aren't going to be a bad mum your thoughts are totally normal especially if you are covered in bites (mosquitos loved me and It made me miserable!) Tell your husband your thoughts it might help.

Totally normal! A baby is a huge change and this is just your brain addressing that.

I felt completely miserable in early pregnancy -
was just exhausted, felt sick and also felt very anxious because it was such early days.
It felt like the longest time of my life waiting for my 12 weeks scan.

I think it’s quite normal to feel like you do, so don’t add guilt into the mix too!

I can also completely relate to the feeling of actively trying to get pregnant and then thinking oh shit it’s actually happening, what have I done.

It’s good that you recognise it’s a huge change, I think people struggle more sometimes when they think they’ll be able to do all the same things as before.

But pregnancy can be a very lonely place. Only you are experiencing what you are experiencing. Everyone around you just gets to think about the fun bits of a new baby.

Thank you so much everyone for such kind replies, it is honestly such a weight off my shoulders hearing that this is normal.

I was clearly feeling a bit emotional last night and I really thought something was wrong with me!
I now feel a bit better however still very very itchy ! 😂🥲

Remeber your hormones are all over the place in early pregnancy. That can mess with how you feel.

Having said that, of course its normal to have some doubts/regrets! Especially with the timing so you cant enjoy your holiday in the way you had planned to. You wouldn't believe how distraught I was when DH was eating/drinking things I couldn't at a wedding when I was 6 weeks pregnant with our eldest. I felt like they'd catered entirely with banned foods!

Yes, your life will change hugely. And it's tough to get your head round because you don't know what the little person it's going tobe revolving round will be like.

Remember, every mum you have ever met has been in your shoes! It's totally normal andok.