Will this pass

[Herecomesthesun90]

I’m not sure who else to chat to about this because I think I might be losing my mind ! And I’m just wondering if it’s happened to anyone else or is there something wrong with me ?? But a close friend has just had her 2nd child a few days ago lovely little baby and I’m so happy for them but for some reason I feel feelings of jealousy I already have two beautiful children one of each and they are both under 5 . I was told it wasn’t a great idea for me to fall pregnant again because both pregnancy’s were high risk and c sections last c section their were some issue even low the doctor couldn’t out right say don’t have more babies they said it in a round about way ! I was happy with 2 over the moon in fact and count my lucky stars each day ! We are just getting into the real fun part and both kids sleep threw the night we love our life how it is ! My husband is 11 years older than me and really wanted to stop at 2 so is due to get snip in aug , but since this baby has came along I feel feelings I didn’t think I would feel !! Im upset I’m sad I don’t know why ? Because I’m so happy for her and no one deserves it more I’m to scared to visit the baby Incase I cry in front of her and I wouldn’t dare say anything to her about how I’m feeling because this is her time and her time only please help ?? Will I feel like this forever

i think it’s very normal to experience mixed feelings when something triggers the realisation that you won’t have any more children. It’s not necessarily that you want another, just that knowledge that you can’t have anymore. I’ve heard many women have similar experiences when facing menopause or infertility even when they weren’t planning of having children. I think it is quite normal but if it becomes an issue in your life that your become upset around babies it may be worth speaking to someone

@PickledScrump thank you so much for taken the time out to send a msg back !,it’s very reassuring , I haven’t gotten upset around babies or the thought of babies it’s just I’m scared I will cry when I see the baby and she asks me what’s going on I’m more upset as you say that I can’t have anymore and it took you pointing that out to make me understand that’s most likely this upset feeling I’m getting so thank you !