I'm 26 weeks with my 2nd. My 1st child is 4 & suffered a brain injury at birth. It's taken me a long time, a lot of therapy etc to be 'brave' enough to have another.
I was on antidepressants for anxiety before I got pregnant. I was told by a consultant it's best to avoid antidepressants in pregnancy, especially in the first 12 weeks. So I told myself, it'll be a tough slog, but it's 9 months, then I can go back on them, I just need to get my head down for that time.
In the last few weeks I've noticed my mental
Health decline. Im worries about the pregnancy, the baby, if the same trauma is going to happen this time. I worry about my 4 YO in general. I worry about the impact my mental health is having on my relationship. I have said sorry to DP as I know I'm miserable to be with & live with right now. Im thankful for my job as I'm busy when I'm working & distracted.
I had an honest conversation with my midwife last week about the fact I'm struggling with low mood & anxiety. She said did I want to go back on the tablets. Because we don't know what caused DC 1's brain injury, I just don't want to take anything I don't have to, personal choice. I won't be swayed on that as taking them will ironically make me anxious I just know it.
I just wondered if anyone had ever been in a similar position & can tell me the magic words that it gets better.. because right now i feel like im at the bottom of a very deep hole. Thanks for reading.