I have somewhat uncontrolled epilepsy, recently under control with a combination of topiramate and lamotrigine but with the odd tonic clonic/grand mal seizure. I've tried levetiracetam. I've tried lamotrigine on its own. Neither worked, although I was taking levetiracetam a few years ago when I was a teenager and more careless with my medication, so I'm thinking I could maybe try it again? I've been to a specialist hospital, where they told me not to be sexually active while on topiramate as it creates babies with physical deformities and learning disabilities; however, when I told my regular neurologist that I wanted to change my medication so I could think about getting pregnant safely, he told me that women have safe pregnancies on topiramate, and he doesnt seem willing to discuss this topic any further, so I'm quite confused.
I'd really love to experience getting pregnant and have life grow inside of me. It's something I was always thankful to be a woman for, so to be in this position where it feels like I can't have a child unless I want it to be disabled makes me cry. I've never actually spoken to other people with epilepsy, definitely not those who have already begun the journey of pregnancy or who have successfully had healthy children, so that's why I've come to this website.
Is there anyone here with epilepsy who is pregnant or who has had a child? Were you on topiramate? Or on some other medication? Was the child healthy? Did anything go wrong? Do you think I have the chance to get pregnant with epilepsy?