Hi all,
I started my maternity leave a week ago. I was hoping for a couple of weeks of time to myself and organising life before DC1 comes along in early April.
Since then I've found out I'll be induced on week 39 because DC's growth has slowed down. I am so nervous but have been told it's nothing to worry about. I thought we had everything prepared but now seems like I might have to buy everything again in size 'tiny' and just generally feeling stressed baby isn't getting enough food through the placenta.
We also completed on a do-er upper a month ago. we started the buying process last year June and so it's a pity we weren't able to get it over the line months ago and the builders have only just started work on the house. DH and I luckily can still stay in the one bed flat we're in for now until the house is ready. But we've had all our nursery furniture delivered here and we won't be opening it until builders have got the house ready but it's like a maze of cardboard boxes in this flat. And it's really upsetting me. This isn't how I wanted to welcome DC1 and we have nowhere to even put baby's clothes away. We're full to the brim. And I don't know where to start.
I think my family are all trying to be helpful but it's a barrage of questions everyday about progress on the house, if I'm feeling baby ok etc etc. My mum on a group chat video call was showing my aunt and sister some pretty PJs she's picked up for me for hospital and I just feel like my entire life is always being constantly discussed. Tbh I'm sure I've been the same when a relative was expecting and just been so excited about the new arrival, but for some reason I'm hating all the attention and I don't really want to talk about the baby. Nobody knows about the small size of the baby or me being induced except for DH.
I think I am just so super overwhelmed and needed to vent. I haven't found this pregnancy at all easy. DH is very excited about DC but he's also started a new job where he doesn't qualify for paternity leave and is taking unpaid leave. Also stressful given the massive house costs at the moment.
Feel like I'm drowning.