I don't know if my expectations are just too high being a first time mum but with the deadline looming I'm really starting to get anxious because I don't think I trust my local hospital. 32 weeks with DC1.
I've felt a bit off about the place ever since I was booked in: the signs were all over the place and unhelpful, the reception wasn't manned and I was seen late. The vibe was just off. I'm sorry that's so vague I just had this feeling that I didn't like it and wanted to get out.
Since then a few other things have happened:
- I was kept waiting an hour for an appointment because they "didn't read the notes"/realise that I was there for a 121 diabetes clinic.
- linked to this, my notes say that I was fully advised of the risks of having a big baby etc etc at this appointment. I was not, and I feel Very uncomfortable that they're basically lying on official charts.
- I have a disability, and again, there was an appointment where the midwives didn't read my notes/realise and tried to get me to do something physically impossible for me to do because of my disability. They were then annoyed that I didn't tell them I had a disability even though it was on my notes.
- I was supposed to have an appointment yesterday which has been cancelled and no one told me, there was nothing on the app etc. I turned up and had to go home again.
- when I said I wanted an epidural they were a bit dismissive and basically said "let's see how it goes"
All these things are adding up to make me feel like I don't trust them, I suppose the overarching theme is that they're coming across as sloppy with poor attention to detail. It isn't one midwife, it seems to be systemic.
I don't know what to do from here or what my options are.