I am writing this, so I have put my thoughts and feelings somewhere. I have been feeling so low recently. I just cry all the time. I am 32 weeks pregnant and already have 2 children, feel like a failure of a mum because I am just so tired all the time and I know I don't do enough, playing with them, taking them out etc! I am just so tired and low constantly. My kids mean the world to me, I know how lucky I am, they are my world but I am constantly asking myself WHY? Why aren't I a better mum? Why don't I force myself to give them more of my time? Why is it so hard? Why can't I do it like everybody else? Why can't I be more organised? Just overall, why can't I be better?
Going go have another bundle of love who I will cherish so much just like I do my other two, I know that!..... I just keep feeling so overwhelmed asking how? How will I manage? How will I be able to split my time? I feel bad enough now? How will I function? Its hard enough now. The list is endless.
I'm not sure if anybody else has ever felt so low and had so many emotions and feelings going around their heads but how did you help yourself? I am so lucky, I know I am, so why do I feel this way? I want to be the best mum I can be but I just know I'm not and don't know how to change it.