Hi all,
Almost 11 months to the date after discovering I had suffered a missed miscarriage I found out I was expecting again. I havent been able to feel any excitement about this pregnancy just a sense of dread. I am 33 with no children and suffer with PCOS, a few months ago I had a sense that I would never be a mother and that it just wouldn't happen for me. So I was in complete shock when I saw the BFP (on about 15 tests)
I havent even told my partner that I am pregnant as I don't want to put him through the pain of losing another child.
Since BFP I have been suffering with lower back ache, I do have a tilted uterus which can apparently cause this. I am utterly convinced that this pregnancy will end in a loss again, my symptoms have been very intermittent which also worries me. Today I have had horrendous period pains and when I have just been to the loo there was a light pink discharge on the toilet roll. It has not been heavy enough to mark my underwear. I had a private scan on Sunday which showed a little beam at 6w6d
I just feel numb and so alone, I almost don't want to get checked out and hear those words again.