I went for an early scan tonight with DH.
At first she could only see the sac and said my bladder was empty despite me drinking two glasses of water knowing full well it's in my best interest to go with a full one. After a bit more searching she said she could see a baby with a heartbeat. We could see constant red and blue flashes which were around ten seconds apart or so. She also measured me at seven weeks instead of my predicted eight and a day.
The reason I had an early scan was due to miscarrying last June and there's a niggling voice at the back of my head saying it's going to happen again.
I asked her whether the baby's heartbeat was strong and she said yes but then went on to say that all that matters at this point in time is that there is a heartbeat. We didn't get to listen to it either. She checked my pelvis too and said she could see no sign of anything untoward happening yet I am expecting the worse.
i know I'm being silly and should just be happy we got good news. Why can't I shake this off?