Sound awful feel awful but I'm absolutely gutted it's a girl . I think though this is stemming from my first born kc who has caused me so much hell it actually put me on a mental health ward more than twice. I have another daughter entirely different to her older sister. But she's only 6 kc is 18 and still very abusive towards me I also have 2 boys and there absolutely golden. I really wanted another boy. I know it sounds terrible but I didn't want a girl at all. I'm a tomboy at heart rideotorbikes shoot guns and my boys and younger daughter are the same . I brought kc up all on my own. I was often hit as a child but the others wasn't I swore never to smack my children and find another way to discipline but I won't lie I felt like smacking kc bk side but never did. She did nothing but scream hit me punch me bite me want want want at one point I even considered putting her up for adoption I'd sit hug kiss her over and over tell her I love her she's always hated me for reasons I can't understand. Then she hit her teens die drugs got drunk but oddly was an over achiever, an extremely intelligent in school so much so they put her down as a talented and gifted child . Now I don't know what todo about this baby I'm ten weeks .