Not sure how I feel

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DS was a very much wanted and tried for baby.
DH and I have talked about a second and we're taking "do nothing special and see what happens" approach.
Nothing has happened for almost two years.

In that time DS has been diagnosed as autistic. I've also really established myself in a new role at work.

I'm four days late but no symptoms so tested on a whim and a positive has come straight up.

I don't know what to think, I'm worrying about money (had some unexpected bills last month) and how DS will cope and how my work will be affected.

I'm in shock (though I know I shouldn't be). It's completely different to how I felt when I was having DS.

In hindsight, staying at 3 am was not the best idea if I wanted replies.

I know how you feel. It took a long time for us to conceive or first and our second happened on my first cycle off contraception. I was in complete shock, we weren't actually trying for a baby I just ran out of the pill, was busy with work etc so left it a few weeks to collect my prescription thinking I wouldn't conceive as it took so long the first time, stupid I know! I didnt really feel a bond with my second during pregnancy, but I couldn't imagine life without him now. It sounds like you have a lot on with dc1 and work but if you want a second child you'll make it work. I think you should give yourself time to get over the shock and talk to your partner, see how yous both feel, your very early into the pregnancy so have time to mull things over before making any decisions.