Hi
just feeling so alone and fed up I’m pregnant newborn on the way and this pregnancy has taken it right out of me I’m so ill so achey, so sick and constantly bleeding.
my partner has been supportive helping with all chores, cooking dinner looking after the house and kids but I just feel so fed up and alone I don’t know what it is.
I don’t feel like leaving the house, don’t feel like eating, just in so much pain constantly.
I’m probably overthinking things but I just don’t feel loved I’m not sure what it is that I’m looking for or is it I have it and I’m missing it.
My partner helping out but I feel like he gets annoyed if I ask him to get me a drink or he’s annoyed at doing stuff prior to this I was solely doing everything. I have said to him why are you getting so aggy where his response is I’m not but clearly he is. I appreciate everything he’s doing but I feel like I’m being penalised for being ill.
last night I was bleeding loads had to call midwife I’m scared of losing the baby was extremely emotional limping around the house as my legs swollen also have a blood clot.
today he’s gone to see his family and I can’t but feel annoyed his gone and left me when I’m ill but I don’t want to feel annoyed either. He asked me if I will be ok with the kids limping and bleeding and said to call him if I need him and he will come back which will take him 2 hours. I just can’t help but feel deflated like surely you would know yourself I will struggle today why am I making the choice and I don’t want to be like stay for me when I know he wants to go.
I don’t have any family :-( and friends seem to be busy or disappeared.
I don’t know just wanted to air how I’m currently feeling.