Hi, first time here so not sure how it works but feel I need to get some advise as am a bit lost!
my ds is nearly 5 and dd nearly 3. Had an abortion last year coz I did not feel I was mentally or physically prepared or indeed financially able to have a third at the time. Stupidly got pregnant again! Just found out yesterday.. I though I had my period but it was way too light.. just some spotting for few days so took a test and a second faded line came through! I am in disbelief, very disappointed with myself as, after the abortion last year I had promised myself that i would not put myself in the same position again! And here I am! Unsure of
what to do! This time kids are a bit older and the second one is starting to sleep through the night. My partner and I have plans for this year.. I was on a fitness journey to get back to myself .. still breastfeeding my second and was hoping this would come to an end soon. Basically I was seeing things getting easier for us and now .. the possibility of a new born entering our family, with everything it means,is very daunting! Both kids are still sleeping with us!!!
financially it would also obviously change things a lot. I just started working again (6months in) after 2 year break! My partner is at home with the kids atm. Having a baby would mean reshuffling our lives again completely! I also had 2 c sections so am worried about a third and all the health implications given I am also 38 years old.. my mind keeps swinging back and forth! I know it s my decision but any insight or advise would be helpful!