36 weeks - no longer coping with pregnancy

[gonewithtthewind]

I have pre eclampsia, GD, PGP and sciatic nerve pain, I'm developing cholestasis.

I'm honestly so so done and feel like I can't do it anymore. My body just feels done and like it can't carry on anymore, I obviously don't want the baby this early but I feel like the way I'm feeling is having a major impact on me now. There's parts of me that keep hoping I'll go into labour soon, the only sign I have that that could be happening is major pelvic pain and pressure so it's unlikely. I'm booked in for a C-section on the 2nd so I know I don't have long to go.

I'm probably just ranting, I just want to know I'm not alone I'm feeling this way because I have major guilt for feeling like I can't do pregnancy anymore. I love my baby more than anything but part of me is starting to resent them for how unwell I'm feeling which I know sounds beyond awful. I have an appointment on Monday but it's at daycare so I don't think they'll do anything if I say all this. I don't know when I next see my midwife but I see my consultant that week.

Sorry for being so miserable and ranting. I don't know if anyone can help

You are doing a fab job!
Pregnancy is hard. People forget that we don't all have a lovely plain sailing time.
I know it feels like a lifetime when your in pain, but in 16 days your baby will be here! You will be able to give cuddles and bond and enjoy it.
I know for me the PGP disappointed as soon as my so arrived.
Keep going. Don't feel guilty. Enjoy the last few weeks of feeling your baby kick because you will miss it. Xx

Oh OP that sounds so hard. It sounds like you're having a tougher time than most but if it helps I think a lot of women are fed up and ready for pregnancy to be over by 36 weeks! I was so ready to have my body back. I also had sciatic nerve pain and it was hideous but disappeared after the birth. I don't know if I can advise anything but I would say grit your teeth you're almost there and feel free to vent as much on here as you want. Are you off work?

Hey, I'm only 34w but feel very much the same. I have massive swelling, unstable bp, SPD, carpal tunnel and an irritable uterus. A giant baby and polyhydramnios too.

One night when the irritable uterus contractions kicked off I even hoped it was labour just so it could be over. I felt very guilty the next day because I'm still so early.

It's good you've got your date pinned in ❤️ I hope that can give you some peace of mind, with having an end in sight. I get my induction date a week on Friday and cannot wait. You're definitely not alone. The pelvic pain, in particular, is awful.

Poor you sounds like you are having a really rough time! I’m also 36 weeks and COMPLETELY over pregnancy without any of the complications you are experiencing so don’t beat yourself up!

It’s totally normal to want your body back, to long for the pregnancy to be over and to moan!

Best of luck for your c section! Xx

Baby is going to have a brilliant birthday, 2/2. Super easy to remember. I hope it goes well. You are more than entitled to have a rant about pregnancy shittiness.

Hi op, I had bad pgp and I found physio really helped? The NHS I'm normally all in support of but the physio they offered me was useless (literally offered to give me crutches and a few generic exercises and said "you expect to be sore in pregnancy anyways" ) so I went for private physio and she was brilliant, did give me exercises that were specific to me and did hands on work on my back and legs which really helped with the pain. It was about £40 a session but I only needed a couple. I found that driving flared mine up massively. Might be worth considering if it gives you some relief on that front? Hopefully not long to go now, pregnancy is really hard main thing is using all the support around you and resting whenever you can.