6 months post abortion

[Ehc1989]

No judgement please, just looking to see if anyone else has ever felt the same way.
I had an abortion 6 months ago, for many reasons I don’t need to go into. I still stand by the decision, but the due date is coming up in a few weeks and I’m taken aback by how I’ve been feeling recently. Since the beginning of the new year I’ve just had this dread of the due date coming up. My friend was due the week after me and had her baby shower last weekend, and I cried in the car home. I just feel so gutted it ever happened & wish circumstances had been different that I didn’t have to chose the abortion.
I just keep crying about the fact the baby would’ve been born soon & so many what ifs in my head 😢

I’m so sorry you are experiencing this 💔 Although I haven’t been through this myself, my friend has and I know she was broken afterwards and wasn’t expecting it at all. I think how you are feeling is totally normal. There is a big part of grief in there that you are dealing with even tho the decision you made was the right one for you. You still have to process the grief. It’s normal, allow yourself to cry and feel the sadness. It will help you in the long run. You will be ok, and well done for being so strong!

So sorry OP. I think I know how you feel to a certain degree. I miscarried in June and I should have been due February/March. I also thought quite a lot about it... I know it's so very painful. But there are times in life when we do what we can. Be gentle with yourself! Allow yourself to cry and try to forgive yourself. Hugs

Thanks both for your kind messages.
It’s all been made harder that every single person I was pregnant with for my first pregnancy are all now pregnant again. They are all due soon & I feel I don’t have a right to feel sad as I made the decision. Hardest thing I’ve ever put myself through xx

You absolutely do have every right to be sad. It’s probably best confide in friends that are not pregnant at the moment if it makes you feel awkward. No harm in speaking to a therapist for a few sessions if your feel you are constantly sad and thinking about it. Sometime talking to people out of the situation can be a great relief of pain.