I an 40+5 with DC2, I’ve had a difficult pregnancy with various health issues and I also mentally struggle with it following miscarriage and traumatic birth with DC1 - but also seems to just make feel quite down! Managed to stay reasonably calm but DC1 my waters broke on due date,
she took 2 days to get here after that. I hadn’t really considered that DC2 would be late as I thought 2nd babies came
earlier and I was just trying to make it through the pregnancy. Now though I’ve been just waiting for a few weeks and every day that goes past I feel more
anxious and helpless and uncomfortable? I don’t even have a midwife appt until next Weds, at my last 1 I wasn’t offered a sweep. I also am feeling more and more detached from baby as the days go by and like it isn’t going to happen? I was already so frightened of the birth after last time, and the fear is getting harder to keep at bay. As is the worry that the baby is going to die before it’s born - the longer it’s in there the greater the chance but it could
have been fine if it was out already?! Trying to monitor movements etc just increases anxiety. I don’t think
i can do this any longer and I feel like im
wasting my life Waiting and not
doing anything? And every night that goes by I get less sleep and feel even less prepared for Labour. A few weeks ago the baby felt engaged but it’s now just all over the place, high up, turning round, most
of the time it’s back to back I think? I am
getting so frightened :(