Feeling Useless

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I'm 23 weeks pregnant and I have really bad ligament pain, I've spoken to my midwife and she says nothing that can be done. I barely have the energy to shower in the mornings, I guess more from a motivational perspective. I can't just clean my kitchen, it hurts to bend down, I get out of breath doing anything. I feel utterly useless! My husband is fantastic in this department and tells me to rest but I am still trying to keep the house to my standards of clean and tidy... which isn't working.

I WFH as a sales manager and I can do my job just fine, I enjoy that very much.

But my moods are grim, I'm snapping, irritated with everything, I feel like my entire life is about to be turned upside down and I am not ready. This baby is planned and very much wanted but I am struggling. The nursery is done, we have everything we need for baby, I'm low risk, everything is fine. I feel so guilty I should be excited but I'm just... terrified, anxious and have no motivation for anything. I feel like pregnancy is happening to me, I have had hyperemesis for the whole thing so far, my meds work but it really took a toll on my mental health.

Really feel for you OP. Pregnancy can be really tough both mentally and physically and often people don't talk about how hard it is, just how grateful and excited we should be. Lovely that you have a supportive husband and that you have got things organised for baby, that helps massively but it is still totally normal to feel anxious and scared about what is to come. Have you spoken to your midwife about how you feel? Might be worth speaking to her as there may be a service in your area that she could refer you to for support. If you think you are suffering from depression which again isn't talked about often during pregnancy, just postnatal, speak to your GP (easier said than done these days I know).
I felt exactly the same in my first pregnancy and beat myself up about it all the time, when now I know loads of people who felt that way during pregnancy and I should have been kinder to myself. So try and allow yourself to feel how you feel but also try and find things you still enjoy doing, going to see friends or short walks if you're lacking energy.
Hope the rest of your pregnancy goes quickly and smoothly, take care of yourself x