Can’t decide if I want to keep the baby

[Staceybeak]

I’m 7 weeks pregnant with my 3rd child, I already have 2 boys ages 2 & 1.

I keep going from wanting the baby to not wanting the baby and I cannot make a decision!

I literally have the abortion pills with me just can’t bring myself to take them.

I love my 2 boys so much and i would feel so guilty having to share my love with another baby. I feel like my 2 boys are all I need and a perfect family not only that, because the boys are so young still it would be very very stressful with all 3 being under 3!

but then, I imagine what another baby would be like, how much love I could give it. It would be so much harder but obviously you’d make it work.

I have been getting so stressed trying to make a decision it’s really getting me down. I really wish I never got pregnant and would not want a third if I wasn’t pregnant but as I am pregnant, it’s a completely different story!

please someone help me with what the right decision is! It’s driving me crazy!

I was in this exact position last year.

If you have the pills, then you should be able to access counselling sessions over the phone before you go ahead with taking them.
I wish I did this!

My experience last year was unplanned 3rd pregnancy. I thought for lots of reasons that a third would not be the best option for my family. I went ahead with the abortion which completely crushed me. I was like you going back and forward trying to make a decision.
I needed to access the phone counselling service after the abortion and I was devastated by what I thought was the right decision for me.
I went on to having a planned third baby after the termination.

Of course for lots of people abortion is absolutely the right choice. For lots of people it isn't.
Call the service you have the pills from and ask to access their counselling. It was really helpful for me and wish I spoke to someone before I made my decision. Good luck to you either way. I am hugely pro choice, take your time, it's a really tough position to be in xx

Thank you for all your replies! Still have no idea what I’m going to do, my head hurts so much.

I think I will have to call the counselling service as I cannot make this decision myself

Yes, do that. It might help to talk to someone experienced, even if just over the phone. I feel for you even though I know what I'd do. It's hard.

Love to you X