So I don't know where else to just spill this and I'm getting tired of people walking on egg shells around me but I'm at a loss and I'm numb. 4am yesterday I was woken up by what I knew as labour pains. I woke my partner where we went straight to the hospital and I started bleeding profusely. When we got there they told me I had to deliver as there was no heart beat. I was 18 weeks pregnant. Me and my partner lost our 2nd baby at 12 weeks at the start of the year and now this one. We do have a 2 year old at home, my first pregnancy which was smooth, no complications. So I can't understand what's going wrong. The hospital are doing an autopsy that we've agreed to to help us find out what's happened. They'll also be helping us with a service and cremation and then baby will come home. That information also knocked us back for six. I have been talking to my partner even now while we're at home recovering but I feel he's bottling everything up. I want to approach him but am trying to figure out how to gently. We've talked about future pregnancy and how we'd want to approach it but have both agreed to go into the new year just focusing on the three of us for a bit. He has talked about how scared he was and how much he feared loosing me but that's it. He's really struggling with this and I know I need to be there for him but I'm struggling too. Sorry about going off on one and probably not making any sense but this is all still fresh.
Has anyone else gone through something similar and can just help ease my mind.