So I have just found out I am pregnant again. This is my second child. My partner and I both have 6 year old boys from previous marriages. My partner and I are not married and have been together 2 and a half years. There are just a lot of logistics that are bothering me.
I work part time and my partner works full time. I've only been able to go back to work since my boy has gone to school. I just don't see how I can go back to work after the baby is born. We have no support network that can help. Financially we won't be able to pay for childcare. I don't want to have to give up my job.
We only have a 2 bedroom bungalow because I have a disability. Our only suggestion is to split the kitchen in half to provide the baby with a room. The boys are already cramped in theirs. Just seems like a lot of money and stress.
My condition is called brittle bones disease it basically means my bones break easily and I have a 50/50 chance of passing this on to my children. I was lucky with my son. But I am terrified he or she may be born with this cruel condition.
My family are not going to take the news well they have never supported my want for children and hence why they wouldn't help with childcare.
My partner and I have had so rough times and I'm scared I will be bringing up another child alone.
Selfishly I feel like I have just got myself some sort of a life. And don't want to give that up.
This pregnancy is basically full of fear. But I feel so much love for them already, as silly as it sounds. I was told I wouldn't be able to have children. 1 was a miracle and I haven't been on birth control in 6 years and somehow I am pregnant. It just seems like such a gift. My heart is telling me just do it and deal with the consequences one by one. But my head knows I should be smarter. I just don't want to feel lonely in being a mother again.