Fully aware I’m coming to this from the very privileged place of being pregnant - a year ago seeing this post would have annoyed me hugely, I apologise for anyone thinking that.
I’m 26 weeks, can feel the baby a lot but am barely showing, I still have a flat stomach just look a bit chunkier to people who know me. With no bump still it all feels a bit like a dream and like it’s not really happening to me.
Over the past few days/weeks I’ve started to feel so depressed, as if I’m dreading what’s to come, feeling like I’ve totally ruined my life and won’t ever enjoy anything again.
My partner is very supportive but I don’t really have any family or friends super close because we are in London and people are spread about (although my mum will visit). I’m also trying to make local friends. I feel like having this baby is going to be a disaster and will ruin everything, I’ll never be happy again and I have nothing to look forward to. I’m also terrified of giving birth when almost all my friends have had awful experiences on the NHS and several left with life changing injuries like prolapses.
Has anyone else felt this way? I feel awful just thinking it.