I am pregnant with my third child (1st with partner) after 5 years together. I had desperately longed for a baby, but put off trying due to various reasons. It got to the point where it was now or never as I am getting older and the age gapes with my two other children. I got pregnant first month from trying and decided as soon as we tried that month if it didn't work I would probably wait until March next year to try. I am almost 8 weeks and so far I feel nothing towards this pregnancy, which is so different from my first two. I keep thinking of the worst possible outcome of not being able to find a house to buy together, having to be financially dependant on my partner after being so independent for some many years and losing myself again being a mother. I am worried I will get PND again and regret this child. My ex was really unsupportive and still is and I think it might be linked to my feelings now that I will be let down, but my partner now is supportive and helps loads with my children now. Sorry to ramble, just trying to make sense of my feelings.