I'm 30 weeks, after a late second trimester loss at the start of the year and just come home from hospital after being admitted last week with threatened premature labour
I hadn't bought anything this pregnancy until 28 weeks when I found a good deal so I bought the pram. I got excited and built it and the next day ended up in hospital and it played on my mind that I somehow caused it by building the pram
I'm home and glad to be home but also very anxious and scared of another loss or baby being born this early. Since getting home dh and my mum keep saying time to get sorted, get hospital bags packed, babies crib set up, all the clothes down from the attic and washed and sorted. I'm just paralysed with this fear that if I do anything in the hopes of a baby being here that I'll end up coming home without them again. I don't want to be too scared to enjoy the rest of my pregnancy, but I think I just might be