I don't know what I'm looking for, but I'm feeling very alone. It would be lovely to hear some positive stories, but I'm not sure there will be any.
I went in for a scan 12 days ago in EPU due to right sided pain, should have been 6w2d but measured 5w2d, gestational sack and yolk sack seen, but no foetal pole. Hcg level was in the right area for this gestation and cervix was closed. I was worried as we were so sure of our dates, confirmed by opk, bbt etc... And felt this couldn't be quite right.
Unfortunately started bleeding lightly last week, which proceeded to heavy red bleeding and cramps, went to A&E and epu again, by then 7 days since the first scan, cervix still closed, no obvious cause of the heavy bleeding and pregnancy was visualised on scsn, slight growth of 3mm to gestational sac but still no FP or heartbeat. Started on progesterone.
In for another scan today, bleeding has slowed but still present, I presume controlled by the progesterone? Its been 5 days since the last scan, slight growth again of GS by 3mm but this time a 2.5mm Feotal pole was spotted, but still no heart beat seen.
I'm at a loss, they won't call it non viable yet due to the slight growth so have booked me in again in a week. But I can't believe that it can be viable, I'm now 2 weeks out of kilter from my dates with extremely poor growth. I feel like I'm living in limbo, I was going in today prepared to be told not viable and to get it managed. But now I've got to put my life on hold for another week, with what I believe can't possibly be a positive outcome? We desperately want this pregnancy, and it's so painful to have a little hope but logically minimal chances.
Has anyone been through anything similar? I'm losing my mind and don't know how I can face this week.