Extreme anxiety, pregnancy after loss

[elm26]

Hi everyone

Some of you may recognise me from previous posts but I'm currently 9 weeks pregnant, I've had 3 scans already because of my history of recurrent miscarriages and my last one was Friday just gone which showed a healthy baby, heartbeat and measuring on track.

I had bad nausea/sickness for a good few days and ended up in hospital on a drip as couldn't keep fluids down.

At my last scan they gave me progesterone suppositories to last me until 16 weeks and booked me in for my 12 week scan.

I have had some spotting and that's why they have given me progesterone. I've had it in a few previous pregnancies also.

Apart from being really tired and terrible skin, I have lost my symptoms of pregnancy in terms of sickness and I'm just so worried.

I've read that progesterone can prevent the natural bleeding that can occur if you miscarry so I'm worried I'm just going to go to my 12 week scan and baby will be gone.

I've never got this far in pregnancy before and I'm terrified it's all going to go wrong, I can't imagine putting myself through the trauma of trying, conceiving then the scans that I absolutely dread again.

I'm waffling but I just feel like I'm going crazy with worry, anxiety, sadness. I should be so grateful to be pregnant and I just feel like I'm on edge waiting for it all to go wrong 😢

@elm26 my period started on pessaries after my first round of IVF which failed and twice during this so far successful pregnancy ( 17 weeks and cautiously optimistic)

So you will bleed on them if the worst happens.

I lost all my symptoms at 9 weeks then they returned around 11 and I lost them again at 14 and I heard the babies hear beat a few days ago at the midwife and my 12 week scan was 13 weeks and all fine.
Hope this offered you a little bit of reassurance x

@elm26 I'm still anxious but I think that's normal because of my journey and you'll be the same- it does get a little better as the pregnancy progresses, but I over analysis everything x

I would highly recommend Zoe Clark-Coates’ book ‘Pregnancy after Loss’ if you haven’t already come across it. The PAL app is also brilliant. I had an MMC in April and currently 24 weeks pregnant. I have suffered with panic attacks before scans, extreme anxiety and general feelings of dread and hopelessness so I know a little about what you are going through.

In terms of symptoms, when I had my MMC I had not lost symptoms at all and I had no bleeding so it was a completely shock. With this pregnancy, I lost symptoms a number of times throughout the first trimester and had on and off bleeding and everything was fine!

As frustrating as it is, you cannot really trust symptoms to give you any accurate idea of what is going on. I wish you all the very best with this pregnancy ❤️

@elm26 I’ve been a paranoid wreck too and 15+4. I cried for days before my 12w scan as was convinced the progestrone would have hidden a Mc. Even though I had had a good scan at 10w 🙈

now I am on antibiotics and very anxious with that too as I’m scared it will do harm.

was hoping I would calm down once I hit 12 W but if anything it has got worse ☹️

hope you start to feel better ❤️❤️ Xx

So sorry to hear of your loss 💛

Thank you for your recommendations, I will look on my kindle and see if I can get that book 😊

Congratulations on your pregnancy, hope you have a healthy and happy last 16 weeks 🙏🏻 xx

The anxiety is horrible isn't it, I even asked my partner if he could buy an ultrasound machine 🤦🏻‍♀️ if only they weren't so expensive 😅

I'm sure baby will be absolutely fine, it's better to treat the infection than not although I completely understand why you feel like you do, I hope the infection clears up soon.

Wishing you a healthy and happy rest of your pregnancy 💛

@elm26 sould have been cheaper for us to buy a machine the amount of esrly scans I have paid for - I completely feel your pain.

we lost two pregnancies too and pregnancy after loss is a very difficult experience. On one hand being so grateful but on the other being petrified waiting for the same outcome.

I was also resssured though that progesterone wouldn’t hide a loss in any way. I deffo think it’s progesterone that got me this far so really have everything crossed for you.

hopefully all our anxiety will have been for nothin and we will get the beautiful baby at the end! Xxx

@elm26 I had a MMC at 12 weeks after a great 10 week scan and am now 10+4 after 2 years of infertility so I completely understand - I am also so fearful. You are very welcome to join us on the due April/May after loss thread if you would like www.mumsnet.com/talk/pregnancy/4616195-due-aprilmay-after-mc?page=22&reply=121014860

@elm26 I lost my symptoms at 8+4, they returned again at 9+4. It can fluctuate as the hormones increase and then stabilise.