1st trimester with 2nd baby and having a hard time

[LittleLlamaMay]

10.5 weeks pregnant and for 5.5 weeks I've had debilitating nausea which causes me to gag and retch if I move about too much (too much being a walk up or down the stairs!) I am now taking cyclizine which seems to help a lot these last few days until this evening where I'm feeling rough again.... I'm so grateful that I've been able to have 1 healthy child and get pregnant again but I feel so miserable.

I'm really low and dreading the rest of my pregnancy, with the idea that I could feel this tired and poorly till next May. I want to enjoy this time like I did with my daughter, but all I see are stories of those who felt ill the whole time and it just feels like a very long road. I also had an EMCS with my daughter so I'm nervous about labour again because I had a complicated recovery with infections and wound re-opening and I have no idea what to expected with a v-birth!

Luckily my family have helped with looking after our 2 year old when my partner is at work and he too has been so supportive. Huge respect for all the mum out there that suffer HG, you are actual superheroes.

I miss being able to look after my daughter, play with her and goof around as usual. I feel grumpy all the time, bloated and ill. I'm just feeling low and all the forums seem to paint a grim few more months.

It will be SO worth it when the baby is here, don't get me wrong, I know that, but I don't FEEL it yet, especially since we haven't even had a scan yet! I'm not sure what I'm asking for - just to know I'm not alone? Was your 2nd pregnancy like this? Anyone else in the same boat? :(

I can’t offer any consolation as I’m in the same boat but I just thought I’d let you know you’re not alone.

I’m 13 weeks now and still suffering, although cyclizine has helped. The worst bit is the guilt I feel around not being about the play with my DS as much or pick him up as much, I’m constantly asking him if I can just rest on the sofa for a bit.

Really hoping the second trimester energy kicks in soon for us both! And I keep reminding myself that my DS won’t really remember me being this ill, but he will have the benefit of a sibling for the rest of his life.

Thank you, sorry to hear you're going through the same thing too. The guilt is definitely strong. We've told our daughter I'm "poorly sick" when I'm in bed, trying to keep that separation between "baby in mummy's belly" (working so far)

I'm 12 weeks now, symptoms eased after my post and then came back at 11 weeks, slowly easing again now and hoping it's the end of it :( found Cyclizine stopped working. How are you finding things?