8 weeks and so nervous

[Perditanoy]

Had two previous losses in first trimester but pregnant again and on aspirin and progesterone. Last loss was very traumatic at 12 weeks.

It's all OK so far as far as I can tell, had an early scan with heartbeat etc but I just can't shake feeling of dread and I feel so guilty for feeling pessimistic and negative.

I feel like I'm waiting for something terrible to happen and I can't picture a positive outcome even though that is obviously what I would love.

I am in touch with a specialist counsellor but next appointment not for another couple of weeks. I asked for another NHS reassurance scan at 9 weeks but they won't do it and I can't face a private scan as that was part of the trauma last time.

I'm starting to do silly things like check my stomach obsessively to see if it's growing and convincing myself it's far too flat for 8 weeks (last time it seemed rounder but I was more bloated).

I don't know what to do. I just need to sit tight and not worry but my mind has gone into overdrive.

Congratulations! Crossing my fingers for a healthy pregnancy for you 🤞 I don't have much advice but I sympathise as I know how nerve wrecking it is waiting to be out 'the danger zone', but I didn't show until 22weeks so please don't worry about your stomach size!

Thank you @pinkpotatoez I think I've just had too much time to dwell on it as work has been quiet but hoping I'll feel calmer

Type my username in the search and join our chat! There’s a few of us in a similar position as you! Previous loss and pregnant again and feeling all the same emotions as you xx

There's a few pregnancy after loss threads on here and we all feel EXACTLY the same. My belly has actually got flatter at 11 weeks cause the bloat has gone down but baby isn't big enough for a bump yet!