I'm 41, and 5.5 weeks pregnant. We have one DD conceived via IVF in 2014. 3 years later we had a surprise natural pregnancy but this turned out to be an empty sac and I miscarried at 6 weeks. In January of this year we found out I was pregnant again but fear completely took hold, my mental health had taken a beating over covid lockdowns and I was absolutely convinced that a pregnancy would end in disaster. I decided to terminate and had a horrendous experience. Failed MVA, retained tissue, resulting in surgery under general 3 weeks later. I spent many months after full of regret. I'd let fear take hold and drive my decision. Looking back it was the right decision for me at that moment in time and after counselling Ive resolved not to beat myself up about it. Fast forward to now and we are pregnant again! Sounds like I've been foolish, I feel foolish, however almost 20 years of infertility kind of leads you to believe that's your cards. My body seems to have kicked into action in my 40s and I'm now filled with fear again.
Please can those who had pregnancy in their 40s share their experiences. I had mild pre eclampsia at 39 weeks, induction and delivery weren't great, DD spent 36 hours in special care unit. I'm fearful of pre-eclampsia again, placenta problems due to my surgery this year and as a result, haemorrhaging in birth. I'm a right old mess. My experience of termination is putting me off considering it again so I'm really torn. To add to it, I suffer with ectopic heartbeats and really uncomfortable palpitations which have picked up these last few weeks.
I'd love to hear from anyone whose had similar experiences, feelings, palpitations?
Thanks xx