Scared I’ll regret abortion

[August21yellowbaby]

I’ve just found out I’m pregnant (only conceived 2 weeks ago) failed contraception
I have a 14 month old
the day after conception, me and my partner had a massive argument, where we both admitted we no longer loved eachother, he said horrible things to me that I’ll never forgive
I ended up having to leave the house and stayed in a hotel
long story short our relationship has been breaking down for a while
he completely let me down in the first year of our sons life, when I begged him to help me because I was so sleep deprived and low, he always told me no. He made me feel I was wrong for asking for help, he made me feel like a bad mother

we have serious money problems at the moment, and we live in a tiny house. I have only this month got a new job which for the first time in my life is a good salary rather than minimum wage
im on probation until December
I absolutely love being a mum, but I can’t deny I’ve struggled, I’m pretty certain I have been suffering with pnd
I absolutely do not feel ready for a baby, mentally, Physically or financially. I know i do want one more baby but obviously when the time is right

my problem is, I live in fear of regret. The main reason I’m still with my partner is because I’m scared of regretting leaving him and then it’s too late.
I honestly wish someone could tell me what to do
I’m 27, I already feel very overwhelmed by life, I wanted to start doing things for myself again (selfish I know)

whats everyone’s opinions ? I know I can only make the decision but it would help if I heard other peoples experiences, like if they regret it or they still stand by their decision

thank you

I haven't personally experienced your situation but couldn't read and run.
At 27, you've got a good long time ahead of you to do whatever you set your mind to. It sounds like at this time you don't feel ready to have a second child, and there is no shame in that. From your description of your living situation, it sounds like it would have a negative impact on your options and your ability to change your situation to benefit yourself and your oldest child.
In your situation, I would have the abortion, allow yourself to grieve for it, but throw yourself into moving away from your partner and setting up a stable life for you and your child.
It will be hard, but you can do it 💐

I had an abortion at 24 and have never regretted it. I’m now 33. The circumstances were different to yours but it was the right choice for me then and is still the right choice now. You have to think about what’s best for you - being selfish is not a bad thing.