Hi everyone, I am really after a handhold... I am 33 weeks pregnant and haven't had the most straightforward pregnancy so far with a few worries and fetal medicine appointment in between (currently thankfully discharged from fetal medicine care and on paeds pathway). The recent worries have been that baby's growth stalled a bit (from around 88 centile at 28 weeks to 43 centile at 32 weeks) but he is currently stable around 43 centile. Added on top of that I had a few episodes of reduced fetal movements and now in for regular twice weekly ctg monitoring.
I was being a little more reassured by the doctors as they did not seem to be too concernced, and having a little bit brighter for the first time in my pregnancy. I was just having a rest the other day and came across a post here on mumsnet about CMV. And it hit me llike a tsunami wall. I know from a blood test a good 10 years ago that I have been exposed and had antibodies, so I am a carrier. What i did not know is the risks of this associated with the pregnancy and to the baby. I have spoken with CMV Action, read numerous resources about this, including NHS, Tommy's and CDC. And it left me with dread. I understand that the infection can reactivate and be passed on to baby, but also you can catch another strain of it! I have been around my friend's who has a 4 year old toddler for lunch and food was shared, we played together and he gave me a kiss on the cheek when I was leaving. I was not aware that this was the main way of spread. So i am equally worried about catching a new strain and that i had a reactivation of an old one... which would explain slowed growth, sluggish movements.
As per advice of CMV I will be raising this with my midwife on Monday but right now, in a sheer state of panic, it feels like a lifetime. Not to mention that we still hopefully have a few weeks to go in this pregnancy and how I am going to get through this without being a complete mess of a shadow I don't know.