Hi,
I thought maybe TTC was a good idea to complete our family but my last pregnancy ended up with a termination for medical reasons. I had HG so bad that I was I hospital 4 times by the time I was 7 weeks, my resting heart rate was close to 100 and my liver was getting damaged. I was sleeping most of the day due to all the drugs and losing weight like crazy. I couldnt walk very far at all due to weakness.
I have an older DD who while I had HG it was manageable. No where near as bad as above. I also caught covid when I was pregnant which the doctors think made the HG way worse.
So now we have decided to ttc again and I’m so scared. Pretty sure I got a faint line on a pregnancy test last week and it didn’t fill me with happiness only dread. I honestly threw up as soon as I saw it and had a sinking feeling.
I think I’m just scared, the idea of having to make that decision again breaks my heart. Only good news I don’t feel too sick right now whereas my previous termination pregnancy I was already in hospital by now.
im half thinking of contacting an abortion clinic to have the medication ready but I know deep down I don’t want that.
Not sure why I’m posting this, guess I just wanted to air my thoughts that I feel people will judge me for. I’m so scared and worried.