Depression & Screaming Whilst Pregnant

[M123456]

I’m completely new to this site but I’m now 3 months pregnant & have been enjoying reading the responses to other things on here.
This will be my first born & I will be a young mum come this time next year, however I’m scared of what the stress & depression I’m dealing with is doing to my baby.
I have cried and stressed out and screamed pretty much all of this first trimester and now I’m just worried about what it’s done to my baby and how the baby must feel.
My relationship with the father and my own family is awful and I’m constantly stressed out and cry almost every day. I have headaches from shouting and arguing, I have been referred to the mental health team at my hospital by my midwife so hopefully I will gain some support from there to help me with the depression and stress.
I just hope my anger and depression hasn’t hurt my baby I’m so scared and worried for him/her, if I I feel like this then god knows how this baby feels. I just want to know if anybody else dealt with extreme stress & anxiety through their pregnancies & if I
should be worried? I’m so scared for my baby.

Can you cut off contact with the people who are causing you the stress? It sounds like they are treating you really badly for you to have that reaction.

Hopefully you get the help you need soon. Are you sure you want to go ahead with the pregnancy given things are so chaotic? Forgive me if that’s unhelpful but surely worth mentioning.

If your relationship with the father is so bad then obviously walk away from him.

Getting on top of things in the pregnancy is one thing. How you’ll manage to bring up a baby in a chaotic dramatic dynamic involving the dad and also your family is another. Access all of the help and support you can as quickly as you can.

I’m trying my best to stay calm as much as possible & I don’t want to have an abortion it would break my heart. I don’t plan on raising my baby around around all this stress but right now I’m not in a position to go anywhere else. I’m currently on the hunt for somewhere to live by myself but being surrounded by every one else and their problems is tipping me over the edge to the point where I’m worried I’m doing something to this baby. I don’t want to get ready of him/her I really don’t.