Hi, I'm between 9-10 weeks pregnant and starting to struggle with some negative thoughts and feelings about this pregnancy. I had a miscarriage in March and I have a 5yr old daughter from a previous r/ship which broke down and the pregnancy was awful (mentally not physically)
I was filled with anger and resentment towards the baby and a lot of self hate and feelings of worthlessness and isolation. This time the pregnancy is planned and is with my new partner but the emotions are flooding back. I am based in a less developed country where therapies are not available and info about ante/post natal depression are minimal and there is a also stigma and lack of understanding.
I am trying to explain to my partner that these feelings are not me "trying to make life hard". I feel i really need CBT to rewire my thinking process about this pregnancy. I want to teach myself some techniques and am really keen to know what helped people and what people have done to re-train themselves out of past traumatic/negative thinking patterns. Anyone got any experience?