37, Mom of 3 and 7 weeks pregnant - Should I keep the Pregnancy?

[MommyOfThreeSweethearts]

I'm 37, have 3 kids and I'm 7 weeks pregnant. It is difficult for me to decide whether to abort or keep the pregnancy. I have had several career breaks over the past 13 years taking care of my 3 kids and I am afraid that one more break would hurt bad. I am afraid of losing my job. I feel really selfish and I feel that this is not a good reason to want a termination.

My husband doesn't want more kids and has advised me to abort the pregnancy, but ultimately, he thinks the final decision is mine to make. His reason behind this is that I am 37 and my chances of having an unhealthy child increase with my current age. He is also worried about pregnancy complications as I had my last child at 30 and it was a difficult birth. Since the beginning of my pregnancy, I have been feeling really sick and fatigued a lot.

We've had abortions in the past and I still feel guilty and I fear that one more termination will make me feel even more guilty. I have an appointment for termination set for Monday (in 3 days) and I am beginning to have second thoughts especially after seeing women with their babies. I am in a dilemma here, any suggestions will be very appreciated.

I would also like to mention here that I have also booked my first antenatal appointment which I canceled because of my indecisiveness.

Please help a sister.

It's such a personal decision and no one can make it but you.

I am 37 and there's no way I would have another child now, my youngest is 10 and I am enjoying the independence and dynamic of having older kids.

I also have 4 and it's so expensive and difficult to navigate, bigger car etc...

I wouldn't do it personally.

It sounds like another baby probably wouldn't work for your family now.
Has your husband thought about a vasectomy?

Ultimately only you can make the decision which you obviously know and only you know how having another could impact what you have now. I tend to think most people don’t regret having their child once it’s here but obviously it’s whether you want your life to change again and how this will impact you, your partner, children and your life. It sounds like your partner will support you either way too despite not really wanting to carry on with the pregnancy which is good. Have you thought about discussing your concerns re health risks with your doctor? They might be able to help there. Initially when you got the positive test, how did you feel? We’re you at all excited?