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[smellymelly]

Warning - this is a moan...

I'm 34.5 weeks pregnant with twins, and I'm ashamed to say I've had enough now!

I have SPD which was getting better but has started again, the usual indegestion, and severe nerve pain at the top of my bump which is getting worse by the week. I am on paracetamol and codeine, and the midwives/registrar keep offering to take me into hospital for pethedine injections - which I don't want to do. One of the GP's I have seen told me that codeine is addictive, for me and the babies, but I only take it once a day normally, twice when desperate.

I cry every day feeling sorry for myself, then feel guilty as there is a light at the end of the tunnel for me, as I'm not ill, I'm only pregnant!

My first pregnancy was so easy, the 2nd was harder, but this one has been so miserable. Dh and I only got married in July, and we have had hardly any marriage yet, he has to sleep downstairs as I'm snoring too loudly, apparently! (I also had a chest infection for 8 weeks to deal with).

I can't wait to see my babies, and we know we are truly blessed, (had an ectopic exactly 1 year ago, and lost a tube), and I know they are better off inside me for the next 3 weeks until they induce me. But I just would like to feel normal again. I hardly leave the house now, and I'm not capable of looking after the kids I have. Dd who is 2, doesn't even want to stay at home with me now, coz I'm too boring....

((smellymelly)) sounds awful. I don't blame you for wanting it all to happen now. You've had a rough ride...and with the dull and horrid weather....which never helps.

do keep posting we're all here for you......

the only thing I can suggest that might just help for an hours or so...is if you can get to a local swimming pool you might find relaxing in the water and dd playung a help (and you won't be able to go with the twins as the law has now changed to one adult per child under four!). I found a deep bath was so soothing.....a pool with a toddler pool would be pretty quiet atm.

Other than that....you've got this far and it might happne before then...and maybe see your gp about the pain relief....it should be managable without taking risks towards the babies.....

oh and ...if you could...see a reflexologist...they really do help!

Thanks Geordie - BTW Dh sent trike yesterday!!

Poor poor you - it must seem like time is standing still at the moment. I'd like to whizz you a time-machine to whizz forward 3 weeks.

One thing I would say is don't feel bad about being selfish and boring for your other kids - this is a relatively short period and soon you'll be yourself again (admittedly with two babies on your hands ), and able to be a proper mummy.

Oh and come on here and have at least a daily rant about how crummy it all is.

Smellymelly - I feel for you so much at the moment. What a really miserable time you have had. In the circumstances, your moan was very restrained. I have twins who were delivered at 33.5 wks and all I can say is take it each day at a time. Every day you can keep them inside you will make things much easier when they do arrive. You want them to have nice strong lungs and be good feeders etc and you will be so proud of how well you've done to grow and look after them all this time when they do arrive. But I know that feeling that you just can't take any more....
Don't worry about your older kids. You all have a lovely time to look forward to at Xmas. I'm currently 35 weeks with our third and my boys too have an extremely boring mummy at the moment. I've plonked them in front of CBeebies with an ice lolly and I'm wondering how many times I can get away with giving them sandwiches again for tea this week. I've been so grumpy and miserable with them and I shouted at one for wetting his pants yesterday. He told me I love you Mummy before bed last night and I felt so bad...
Sending you big hugs and lots of luck. Can't wait to see your birth announcement.