Hi all,
TW: Mention of previous loss
I am 19+1 today. I had an emergency stitch put in last Wednesday due to my cervix shortening to 0.5cm and being open 3cm.
When I found out I was pregnant, I tried to push for a preventative stitch due to a previous loss at 17 weeks in December 2021. Disappointingly, I was refused and was just about offered cervical scans and albeit 3 weeks apart.
On my Monday appointment, my cervix was measuring short (26cm roughly) - and starting to open but only by 0.64cm. By Wednesday it was 0.5cm and 3cm open, but the membranes weren’t visible. The Dr said I was very lucky, the baby would have come in the next few days/week, and now ‘just pray’ so obviously not feeling very optimistic 😞I have a follow up on Monday 18th and I’m being infection tested every week by my GP.
I have such a mix of feelings about everything, like why I wasn’t offered this earlier and why they waited until my cervix had changed and my chances are now much lower to carrying to viability, let alone full term.
I’m lucky enough to be able to work from home and I’m doing minimal moving, but I’m terrified quite honestly of losing another baby. I can’t believe we are facing this situation again 😞
Its such an awful experience and on top of that, not being able to enjoy my pregnancy is so hard. I have to keep cherishing every moment with my little one because I don’t know how much time I have left with them. I’m almost half way into my pregnancy and normally people have started to shop or think of names, but I’m completely paralysed not knowing if our baby will survive.
Just hoping for some kind words and any success stories if you have them x