Argggghhhhh I'm sorry I need to vent before I scream/ cry/ down a bottle of gin (I joke)...
Anyone else just feeling at the end of their tether? I'm 36 weeks with my 2nd baby (my first is only 13 months) but I'm just finding it so tough this time round. My DD is my absolute world, but I'm struggling to look after her by myself while DP is at work. When I was pregnant with her, I had PGP from the start of the 3rd trimester. This time round it started at 10 weeks and has got progressively worse.
DP isn't being particularly helpful. We're both Prison Officers, but I've been off for a while because I'm Type 1 Diabetic and my blood glucose was an absolute nightmare. My maternity leave has now kicked in at 36 weeks which is fine with me. He comes home from work and moans that he's tired (I get it, I do the exact same job...) so he grabs a beer from the fridge and sits on his phone/ computer until it's time for bed and does nothing to help, despite my numerous whinges pleading for support. He's happy for me to clean, do the washing, look after our DD, cook and wash up. He's a great dad and does help with DD when he's about, but on shift work he often goes 4-5 days without seeing her at all.
Every evening, I just want to sit down and cry. I'm in so much pain with the PGP and just feel exhausted. I'm still doing the night shifts with DD as well because he has to work. I'm relying more and more on Co-codamol to get me through the day pain-wise.
I have a planned section booked for 3 weeks tomorrow. I have antenatal tomorrow, do you think if I tell them how I feel they'll bring the section forward by even a week? The thought of another 3 weeks of this is killing me. I've tried speaking to DP many times (including tonight) but he just nods and stares at me like I'm nagging and moaning about nothing....