Why do I always think I'm jinxing it?

[Pregnantpolly]

Everyone else seems so assured that they'll have a baby whereas I'm just perpetually anxious something will go wrong and that I do deserve the child.

I haven't bought anything yet because I believe it would jinx it and I steer the conversation if someone talks about the baby.

I scour the Internet and immediately find problems everywhere and think it'll apply to me.

I'm early 30s, bmi was less than 21, no health issues so I'm not sure why I'm so anxious about it all. I want to have the confidence to announce it wider. Only immediate family, closest friends and work know.

I don't have a bump yet.

some of us are programmed to think the worse, human nature. Perhaps you need to speak to your GP as this may get worse the further along you get, then they’ll be aware of you develop deeper levels of anxiety.

Thank you @TheFairyNamedMary . I keep wanting to say to the midwife but she thinks I'm doing so well etc so I hate disappointing.

I even have a countdown timer between scans to try and get me through and get something to focus on.

I feel exactly the same... it's so tough isn't!

I have a countdown too! Glad I'm not the only one

Heya, I suffer with anxiety and I’m in therapy, and ‘jinxing’ is actually a part of anxiety. It’s classed as making a mountain out of a molehill and always assuming the worst. If you have a well-being service in your area via your NHS try and self refer - I was around 20 weeks pregnant when I did and got into therapy 2 weeks later.
I will admit my therapist is struggling to help at the moment as I’m 38 weeks pregnant and baby doesn’t have a defined pattern, so I’m obviously anxious and she cannot intervene to tell me to stop being anxious - some of anxiety is gained via pregnancy hormones, so even if you didn’t struggle before, you may now. So don’t worry, you aren’t alone.

@Rhiz54321 how far are you along? Sharing in worries helps.

@Vimto1991 I do catastrophise a lot but reluctant to seek help as I don't want anything on my medical record. It's horrible you're still feeling that way though.

@Pregnantpolly if baby was normal and had a normal pattern movement I think I’d be a lot better! I struggled majorly with health anxiety and whilst I’m doing okay on my side, I do overly worry about the baby that something will go wrong - it’s difficult, not going to lie. Not sure I want another baby after this unless my MH is in a better place. :( will all be worth it when they are here, but being pregnant is hella stressful!!

im not sure it goes on any record? Any midwife or consultant I’ve spoken to have been surprised but happy I was getting help. Same for the health visitor, too.

Hey, I’m currently 12w 2d and currently losing all my symptoms. My bloat has now completely got and I have no pregnancy symptom’s whatsoever. I’ve also noticed my gas and stools no longer smell but they have smelt disgusting and a specific smell the duration of my entire first trimester. I had a scan at 11w 2d and everything was great, baby was also measuring 4 days ahead too but my dramatic change in symptoms and suddenly feel SO normal has me feeling very nervous again. I’ve been so lucky to have 5 scans during my first trimester and all have always been great with everything measuring on track so I should have no reason to worry but I don’t know why I can’t help myself and always thinking the worst… it’s driving my husband nuts who is the complete opposite to me and so relaxed about everything 😅 I'm in my early 30s too and this is my first pregnancy so I'm hoping my anxiety improves so I can actually start enjoying this experience.

@Rhiz54321 symptoms definitely ebb and flow. It's so hard coping. 2nd trimester and feeing well and energetic really is stressing me out.

@Pregnantpolly how far along are you?

@Rhiz54321 19+1 still seems a long way to go.