Hi everyone
So I woke up in a sweat this morning as I recalled that my friend's young DS who I saw yesterday looked like he was covered in chickenpox and I know her other DS had it recently. When I was there I recalled vaguely thinking it could be dangerous for me as I've never had chickenpox, but for some stupid reason I didn't think straight /check properly and I now realise I put myself and my baby's life at risk. Please don't make me feel any worse about it than I do. I already hate myself for this and if anything happens to my baby I won't want to live anymore. I am also utterly astounded at just how stupid I am and think I need my mental capacity checked to see why I did such a stupid stupid thing. I can't even say I was ignorant because I was vaguely aware it could be dangerous, but was in a stressful situation (related to relatives I have involved in the war in Ukraine) and clearly didn't think. I hate myself.
All that aside, please can someone clearly explain to me the risks to my baby and myself now I've been exposed and have never had it? And what I should do/request from my midwife or doctor? I have a midwife appointment this morning and will go in early to see if she can see me sooner because I'm going crazy with worry. Should I request blood tests to check immunity? Antiviral medicine? How likely is it the baby will be harmed at this stage?
Thank you