I am feeling low and stressed at the moment and wish I never got myself in a state of looking forward to a planned C-section. I was told I could choose to go for a planned C-section or natural birth. My first born has cerebral palsy (not exactly sure what happened, of course there's that oxygen starvation to the brain). Then my second child is now two years old and was born by emergency C-section as his heart rate was low (this could have been picked up if they had been monitoring me. I was monitored overnight but after change of shifts in the morning, I was left without monitoring until 11am when I was in so much pain and told whoever came round that I couldn't do it anymore. When they finally came to put the monitors on and check how far dilated I was, I was rushed into theatre as they discovered baby's heart rate was low. Now on my third child, after that traumatic emergency C-section, I chose to go for a planned C-section, the consultant said they normally do it at 39 weeks and she promised to book me in at my 34 week appointment, come 34 weeks, I get given a date that is past my due date (6th June), my due date is the 4th of June. I have been really angry since then and feel so disappointed, stressed and emotional. I was told they are fully booked so they gave me a date after my due date as it was the nearest available date. My midwife was happy about it but looks like there's nothing much any of us can do other than wait. My other half was thinking we could try changing the hospital but it's to late am sure as am now 36 weeks.
I know the staff work so hard under stressful circumstances but I feel I shouldn't have been given that hope in the first place if it wasn't something that can be done at 39 weeks. This has now disorganised me and stressed me out.
Sorry everyone for the rant, I just needed to let out my frustration and couldn't think of any better platform to do that.