Anxiety in pregnancy after loss

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Hi all,

I'm 5+3 today, finally getting my BFP 6 months after a hideous MC at 11wks on holiday in October where I had to spend four days in a Spanish hospital alone.

I'm very cautiously optimistic because I'm still fairly traumatised by the whole thing, and I'm finding myself extremely anxious this time around. Today my boobs feel like they've stopped hurting completely and I'm panicking. I know symptoms can come and go but it was really reassuring that they hurt and how I have nothing to convince me I'm still pregnant.

I'm having HCG tests - one today another on Monday so I guess will know more (for now at least) later this afternoon / Monday but just wondering if anyone has any advice about dealing with the horrible anxiety of pregnancy after loss. I'm a nervous wreck!

@dreamyunicorn I don't know - I missed the doctor's call yesterday evening so have to call back for blood results today. I can't really be bothered to keep going in for expensive private scans if I'm going to miscarry anyway. But I guess I'll have to. I'm so scared about when it's going to happen. But having been through it at 11wks before I'll expect the worst and hope for slightly better.

Sounds horrific im so sorry for your loss and the anxiety your left with, no one tells you that, my first born boy was a still birth at 7.5 months so when i got pregnant 8 weeks later with my dd who is now 12 btw and thinks shes 21! I was convinced blind every day she wasn’t going to make it. I drove the hospital mad with extra scans weekly sometimes every 2 weeks i just had to call n say my name n they said come in. I drove everyone mad. Including myself even after she was born until she was abt 1. And now i have a 12 yr old hormonal oracle that refuses to go to school and knows the answer to everything i love her so much but shes been sent by her bro to keep me on my toes. I agree tell ur mw ur anxious and buy a doppler asap i got one around ten weeks so I listened to her heartbeat multiple times a day. Helped me alot.