Hand hold, feel like I'm going nuts

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Im in my last week of pregnancy. Due next week and for the past week or so I feel like I'm going crazy. I don't want to see anyone but I feel lonely. I can't be bothered to do anything but then I get bored and irritable from doing nothing. On one hand I feel so ready to have this baby, on the other I am terrified of the change.

Tonight I have had a massive row with dh over what to watch on TV ffs. I was in floods of tears and just felt so irrationally angry with him even though he's been doing everything for me over the past few weeks now I'm really big and struggling. It was pathetic. We're now in separate beds and I just feel so so edgy and irritable.

Is this hormones and just being generally fed up or am I losing the plot? This is my second baby and I can't remember feeling this crazy last time.

It sounds to me like a mixture of hormones and anxiety.
I’m pregnant with my second and I’m so much more worried about how much is going to change this time around.

It sounds like you probably just have a lot on your mind and it’s coming out as irritability. I’d have a chat with your partner as he’s probably feeling similar but I’m sure he’d rather support you and talk through how you’re both feeling than argue over unrelated things.

I hope you’re feeling a bit more normal soon and good luck with your upcoming arrival, these weird moods will be a distant memory soon

@BorderlineBob thank you I think you're probably right. With my first I was ignorant to what parenting was going to be like but this time I'm all too aware! Plus there's the additional worry of how my current dc will cope with the change. I really do feel like I've lost the plot a little though, I can't believe I was so worked up over what to watch on TV. And I almost wish I'd carried on working up until my due date despite longing for my mat leave to hurry up while I was in work. Just feel like I don't know my own mind at the moment.

Sounds pretty normal. Is this your first? I self sabotaged my 4 weeks of maternity by being absolutely paranoid about going into Labour. Just felt like this weird limbo between one life and another. I was so out of sorts. Just became unable to really do anything. The only thing I enjoyed was watching the World Cup (it was 2018). Ido t even particularly enjoy football normally either.

Second time I worked up until week 39 to avoid that time!

Good luck. It will be fine. Remember this is an amazing and huge thing you are doing. It's only natural to be anxious and hormonal.

Sorry just read it's your second! For what it's worth I found d it all so much easier second time. I was terrified of the change and how we'd cope. But it's been way better than I thought. You've already completely changed your life so the hard bit is done.

@TaraRhu I think that is a perfect analogy - limbo between one life and another. Just waiting around. My days feel empty. I'm trying to do stuff with my older dc but I'm physically struggling and mentally just can't be bothered. Then I end up beating myself up for that too. Im frustrated, bored, anxious and irritable. It's funny you mention the World Cup because I've developed a new interest in Netflix series like Downton that I've never previously had any interest in. Bizarre.

Haha! Hormones. I got really into it. I had a little chart I was filling out each day.

My second turns 1 next week. We had our first in nursery full time when she was born. and honestly the days with the baby seemed like a holiday. Literally just watched Netflix and slept. If you can get help with your first I really recommend it. I thought I'd put pressure on myself but I didn't second time. I hardly left the house for a month! Also couldn't be bothered doing any baby classes etc this time. Feeling a bit guilty about that now though. Just so different second time.