Im going to start this conversation by saying, please don’t hate on me. But today I found out the baby I was told was a girl is actually a boy (tech messed up and told us the wrong thing before). When I heard her say the baby was a boy my heart dropped. My whole life I’ve been hurt by men, I was scared of my dad growing up, a male relative hurt me as a young child, I’ve been sexually assaulted more times than I can count by 3 different men in my 22 years of life. Men have always hurt me. My boyfriend and father of my baby is safe, I’m not scared of him but it took me a long time to trust him and if I’m being honest I don’t fully trust him. I’m scared of having a boy because in my experience they hurt people and lie. I want to love my baby so bad. But I’m scared. What should I do?