Bad Misscarriage at 13 Weeks

[janiekinns]

This would have been my third pregnancy,my first was in 2002....didn'teven know i was pregnant at the time because i was having fertility probs,anyway i thought i was just having a period until i collapsed at work with the pain.So i was taken to hospital and yes it was possative,but was told not to get my hope's up because i was in so much pain...anyway i did misscarry!
Then fell pregnant again 3months later and on 31/01/03 i had a beautiful daughter(perfect)!

Then in november 14th 2007 found out i was pregnant again after trying for so long (i am PCOS),I couldn't believe it,i was so happy.Well everything was going fine until i was 12wks,4days and i started noticing blood when i cleaned myself after going to the toilet,this started on friday 21st dec 07 and had no pain.The following day it got heavier but still no pain,until i went to bed and woke up in pain and said to my hubby it wasn't right,so he took me to A&E and when i gave a sample i just flooded.My heart sunk and everything just went from bad to worse.My blood pressure went from 158/90 down to 66/43 because i was bleeding so heavy.
Then they had to rush me up to a ward and put me on a drip and constantly monitering me because my blood pressure kept dropping and constantly loosing massive amounts of blood and huge clots,i could feel my body just going lifeless and trying to stay awake.I was then told i urgently needed two blood transfusions.I was told the following day Christmas eve 24th dec 2007 that i could go home because my blood pressure was going back up,my blood count was still slightly low but borderline,just before my hubby came to pick me up i thought i'll just go to the toilet and as i sat on the toilet there was a big splash,i didn't want to look because i knew what it was,so i looked down the toilet and it was...but i couldn't leave it there and flush it away so i put my hand down the toilet and i was holding my baby in my hand (sorry but i'm blubbering as i'm typing,so if it doesn't make sense then thats why),so i called for a nnurse and they took it away....i just wish i hadn't had to wittness that,it was devastating.Now because i lost all that amount of blood in 24hrs i was anemic,so i am now having to take a high dose of iron tablets.Feeling very emotional,upset,alone,still feeling very dizzy and shaky,sick,cold,headaches because of the anemia.That was two weeks ago,i hope it all goes away soon.

Oh janiekinns I'm so sorry you had to go through this What a terrible thing to have experienced. Sending you lots of postive vibes to hope you get through the grief with dh and dd xxxxxxx

What a terrible experience- I have suffered mc's (an ectopic at 9 weeks and a mc at 7 weeks) but nothing as traumatic as what you have described.

Keep yourself comfy and warm and make sure that you take all the time you need to heal.

Take care x

Big hugs to you Janie, you sound so heartbroken and traumatized.

I lost one of my babies at 12 weeks too, and it happened on the toilet too, it is a horrible, horrible thing to have to see, it was my worst nightmare. Mine was over 12 months ago and I have another baby now.

Your grief sounds very raw right now, take care. Would you like to talk about this in the miscarriage berevemant topic, there are many helpful and lovely ladies there.

I'm sorry for your loss

I'm feeling very emotional at the moment because over the past couple of weeks(over the christmas period)i've had my husband and my 5 year old princess with me for 2 1/2 weeks and now my husband was back at work on monday and my daughter back at school.I find my self sobbing my heart out because i only have my own company.

This is my first time to a site like this and it's a nice way of opening up and having a bit of a cry without upsetting the ones closest to you.

I'd like to thank you all that have replied to what has happened to me,it's nice to know you're not on your own at times like these.

Thankyou

Oh you poor thing - how horrible and sad for you. The sadness and tears are normal (I'm sure you know that) - it is best to let it out.

There is lots of support here - unfortunately there are lots of people who have had MCs. Keep posting.

OH MY GOD, i feel your pain, this is so sad. I just wanted to let you know that i am thinking of you.
As much as it doesnt help at the moment, remember time heals, you HAVE to take time out and grieve for your huge loss. Cry, cry and cry away its the most natural emotion we own. U shouldnt worry about upsetting the ones closest to you, they are your support networks and the ones u should be able to absolutely ball your eyes out to. No one has the answers or ability to heal your pain but they and we are here to listen and care.
I hope things become easier for you in time and life gives you a kinder helping very soon. Lots os love xxxxx

So very sorry to hear of your loss.

Cry all you like.....we're here.

im so, so sorry it sounds horribly frightening and traumatic. cry all you want. there is a support thread for women going through or who've been through a mc, here i wish i could say something constructive but...

Hi i'm back again,

Still feeling very low,it's been 7 weeks since i miscarried and last night i was overcome with high emotions and burst into tears,i feel really emotional and just want to cry all the time?

Still waiting to get my periods back,not had one yet?

Hope it doesn't take too long,as we would like to see if we can get pregnant again.
I don't know why i am felling so emotional this past week or so????

Janiekinnss, I'm so sorry. Just hold on in there. If I was in your situation, I would be just the same. I had a m/c at 9 weeks (but not traumatic) and I was low for ages. My thoughts are with you.

Janiekinns,

i had a mc in mar 06 - and sometimes i sitll get down days. they are few and far between now - but still there. this is early days for you. allow yourself time to grieve and heal. be kind to yourself and althought it is such a cliche, time is a healer.

cx