I took a test on Friday and got a dark line quite quickly. Took one of the clearblue digital ones on Saturday and got "preganant 2 - 3". Just took another this morning and got "pregnant 3+".
I believe that this means I am somewhere between 4 and 5 weeks but unfortunately I didn't track my last period properly so I am not completely sure.
This was unplanned so initially it has been a shock. However, over the past couple of days I've already started to grow quite an attachment to the little poppy seed growing inside me. For some reason I'm absolutely convinced that I am going to miscarry and I am dreading each time I go to the bathroom.
I've not really had any pregnancy symptoms yet. I've been having some cramps which feel just like period pains and I keep feeling like this is all a dream and I am going to start my period any moment. Yesterday, my nipples felt slightly tender but today they seem to feel mostly okay unless I press on them. I've not really had any nausea or sickness. Is this something I should worry about? Is it normal that I wouldn't really get any pregnancy symptoms yet?
I keep obsessively checking the tissue for blood when I go to the bathroom. So far I've not had any bleeding but this morning there was the tiniest dot which looked red on the tissue. I'm not sure if this would even count as spotting as it was about a mm in diameter and I only saw it from inspecting closely, but of course it's added to my fear. There's been nothing else so far today.
I've always been an anxious person but not to this extent - I'm shocked at how frantic and panicky I am being! I'm feeling quite alone in the whole thing. My DH is not thrilled about the news of pregnancy. My mum is supportive but I'm trying not to get too excited yet as it's so early days. I've not told anybody else.
I rang up the GP and the receptionist told me just to call the community midwives directly, but so far I've been unable to get through to them. I'd initially assumed I was going to see the GP who would do a test to confirm the pregnancy and give general advice but it seems that's not the way things work.
I am on ADHD medication which I was prescribed by a private psychiatrist and we are in the middle of trying to get my GP to take over prescribing as part of a shared care agreement. I assume I will need to stop the medication (I've stopped for now) while pregnant but I'm not sure who exactly I should ask. I just feel a bit lost and left alone with it all.
Also, about four years ago, I had some tests done after experiencing pain after sex. These tests were done while I was living in another country and they came back that I had high levels of something called ureaplasma. From googling, this seems to be something that the NHS do not routinely test for or treat. Most of the discussions seem to be from Americans who talk about this causing miscarriage. I have no idea if I even still have it - when the test results came back all those years ago, the doctors seemed to show no real concern and did not think it needed treating. They told me lots of people have it and it's nothing to worry about. Now I'm not sure what to think but know that a GP/midwife on the NHS would surely not pursue looking into this.
Can anyone else relate to constant panic during early pregnancy? I'm just so shocked to even be pregnant and also feeling quite alone and overwhelmed with everything.