So i have a what is probably a something and nothing problem, but i can't stop thinking about it. I am a mum to 4 wonderful children, I have 2 older boys 16 and 13, my 13yr old is staying with his dad as he's ran into a bit of trouble. I also have 2 girls 9 and 6, who barely get to see their dad cos he has a new family, but i have a great boyfriend been together nearly 2yrs now ... we don't live together but are together more often than not he's a little girl 9 too ... he's great with my chaos we are age 38 and 39, everything's fab and happy ... but it's happened a few times now when we have a drink he always says he wants a baby with me he'd love it and would really want to try (he says he has low sperm count, and I have the coil), but he goes on about it alot when we have a drink, I laugh it off and just say yeah whatever ... cos ya know between us we already have 5 .... I thought I was done so so done .... when he's not had a drink he's like no way no how so I believe that obviously.... but do u think he does want to try just because he only has 1 daughter? And is just afraid to admit it? ..... we both work and support our own .... he's a great dad ... I'm obviously older at 38 now and time is running out if he does and there's no promise .... but I'm fearful I'd be left alone again if I were to do it again .... that's the only thing that stops me from allowing us this .... and obviously that when sober we are both adamant it's not a good idea lmao
But I am worried that its something he does secretly want ..... what would u think?
Like I said I think its something and nothing, and unless we were actually discussing it properly and sober I wouldn't do anything .... but I dunno if he is being truthful with his feelings ....sorry this is long its just playing on my mind.